What Am I Becoming?

You play a little rough but I never knew you were after me
Now even when I'm alone I feel like somebody's watching me
I couldn't smell the smoke and now I'll watch the flames
I couldn't push myself to quit, oh this dangerous game
There's a reason people die out here
I can't keep living this way

I've been running so long
These shadows start to feel like home
I know it's backwards
Been scared so long
Can't recall what I started running from
What am I becoming?

You tell me "that's enough," but I got a hunch I'll be back again
Even if I could escape, I'm paying with something I shouldn't spend
I couldn't smell the smoke and now I'll watch the flames
I locked myself out here again, oh this fruitless game
All these people are gonna die out here
I can't keep living this way

I've been running so long
These shadows start to feel like home
I know it's backwards
Been scared so long
Can't recall what I started running from
What am I becoming?