Masochistic Oath

Bathing in agony
Covered in shame
These walls cave in
Only myself to blame

Pill after pill, I prepare myself for the morning ahead
My body folds, writhing in pain
No one is here for me

Bathing in agony
Covered in shame
I listen to the running water
It fills the bathtub slowly

I am trampled by thoughts
Weighed down by memories
I lay my head still, welcoming an infinite sleep

My sacrifice for you
An endless cycle of ache
Still conscious, I am paralyzed

Eyes wide open, staring aimlessly
Water begins to fill the floor
Rising slowly, so poetically

I begin to choke, this is what I crave
I am a masochist, in my blood I bathe
Drowning in my own self-hatred
I can feel my lungs as they begin to fail

Bathing in agony
Covered in shame
This burden of living never seems to end
As I lay my body and take the devil's hand

In this holy water
In this chamber of sin
Born into filth
I die alone