フィクサー (Fixer)

Fixer

フィクサー (Fixer)

I can't sleep until I erase all the memories until today
きょうまでのきおくのぜんぶをけしてしまうときまでねむれない
kyou made no kioku no zenbu o keshite shimau toki made nemurenai
I can't stand it, I want a substitute for myself to live from tomorrow
あしたからいきていくじぶんのみがわりがほしくてたまらない
ashita kara ikite iku jibun no migawari ga hoshikute tamaranai
Don't tell me it's okay and then blame you later
だいじょうぶといわせてあとからきみのせいにさせてはくれないか
daijobu to iwasete ato kara kimi no sei ni sasete wa kurenai ka
Can't you let me blame you later since I can't see it now?
いまさらいみないからあとからきみのせいにさせてはくれないか
imasara imi nai kara ato kara kimi no sei ni sasete wa kurenai ka

Promises that can't be kept
できない約束を
dekinai yakusoku o
My brain is overwhelmed by overflowing words
とうとうと溢れる一言一言ばかりに脳を奪われるくらい
toutou to afureru hitokoto hitokoto bakari ni nou o ubawareru kurai
Can't make sense, can't do anything
意味を成せない何もできない
imi o nasenai nani mo dekinai
Can't see, want to escape, want to fly, want to stop, can't avoid
見えない逃げたい飛びたいやめたい逸らせない
mienai nigetai tobitai yametai sorasenai
So
だから
dakara
Sink, sink until it can't be raised
沈め沈め灰上げられないほどまで
shizume shizume hai agarenai hodo made
Drop until you get tired, drop until it's time to reveal salvation
飽きるまで落とせ落とせ救い晒す時まで
akiru made otose otose sukui tarasu toki made

Chew the lies that taste like grains of sand, crush the screams that come out of your throat
うそ味のつぶつぶを喉からしめだした悲鳴ごと噛み砕く
uso aji no tsubutsubu o nodo kara shimedashita himei goto kamikudaku
Follow along with the known mouth movements with a fake smile
笑顔がへたなばっかで知ったような口振りにそってやり過ごす
egao ga hetana bakka de shitta you na kuchiburi ni sotte yarisugosu
I didn't want to become
なりたくなかった
naritaku nakatta
Waiting for salvation in today's useful sleepy, sleepy ideals
今日役立つ眠たい眠たい理想で救われることを待つ
kyou yakudatsu nemutai nemutai risou de sukuwareru koto o matsu
The first thing to say is with words
一番目は言の口で言う
ichibanme wa i no kuchi de iu
Strongly, firmly, painfully bite down
力強く堅く痛く噛み締めて
chikara tsuyoku kataku itaku kamishimete
Die, disappear, if you hate not knowing the future or the past
死んでしまえしまえ この先も過去も知らず嫌いなら
shinde shimae shimae kono saki mo kako mo shirazu kirai nara
Break, break, it's better to become a company anyway
壊せ壊せどうせなら会社になればいい
kowase kowase douse nara kagaisha ni nareba ii
Before you can't stand the frustration or the unrelenting sadness
食べきれない苛立ちも波うまない悲しみも
tabekirenai iradachi mo nami umanai kanashimi mo
Before you tastelessly spit it out
味気なくて吐き出す前に
ajikenakute hakidasu mae ni
Sing the next one already
もうもう次を歌え
mou mou tsugi o utae

Calm down, calm down
しずめ しずめ
shizume shizume
Drop, drop
おとせ おとせ
otose otose
If you're going to do it anyway
どうせ なら
douse nara
Dance, dance
おどり おどれ
odori odore
Before you become the color gray, let it out
はいいろに なりきるまえに うちならせ
haiiro ni narikiru mae ni uchi narase
Change, change
かわれ かわれ
kaware kaware
Until you fall asleep
ねむり おちるときまで
nemuri ochiru toki made
If you're going to do it anyway, steal, steal
どうせ なら うばえ うばえ
douse nara ubae ubae
Expose the lies you've hidden
かいならした うそ あばいて
kainarashita uso abaite
I saw the imagination that flashed through my head
にえたぎる あたまに よぎった きょぞうを みていた
nietagiru atama ni yogitta kyozou o mite ita
I looked at myself
じぶんを みてみた
jibun o mite mita