Leaving It Up To You

I don't know why I'm
So caught up in covering up the past
After all this time
I thought I would be over you at last
But it kills me at night
I was hoping you'd give me a second chance
But I'm leaving it up to you
Leaving it up to you
And there's nothing I can do
Cause I walked away when I said I'd say
No excuses so
I thought I'd make it better as I go
If I could go back in time
I wouldn't leave you waiting all alone
I lay awake late at night
I wish I had the courage to saying no
I'm leaving it up to you (I wanna go back home and)
I'm leaving it up to you (I wanna go back home)
After all this time I try to understand this pain
No excuses so I find a reason to run away