Polaroid

What a familiar pain I feel
Through my veins
I won’t heal
Is this a pattern
I'm damned to repeat

Can’t go on
Feeling this weak
If my past effects
My present
How do I begin
To learn the difference

I’ve grown attached
To the pain
That lives inside of me
I turn my back
On reality
Don’t reach out
For me

I’ll build the walls
Around me
With little windows
So I can see
I promise not
To disappear
Completely

What a familiar
Pain I feel
Having trouble
Telling what is real
Is this a pattern

I'm damned to repeat
Gripping my
White flag
Of defeat
The one that
Hurt me first

Told me
It was true
That I’d never learn
To live without you

And I wish
I could remember
The good times
But those were
The first
To leave my mind

Now I only see you
In flashes
Like pictures
On Polaroid