Papá

Dad

Papá

It's been a while since you've been goneHace ya un tiempo que te has ido
And I still haven't said goodbyeY yo todavía no me he despedido
Thinking of you has become a punishmentPensarte se ha vuelto todo un castigo
The guilt doesn't go away, it stays here with meLa culpa no se marcha sigue aquí conmigo

I never dared to tell you, that's why I write to youNunca me atreví a contarte por eso te escribo
At night you appear because I still dream of youPor las noches apareces por que aun sueño contigo
I know I won't see you, forgive me if you canSe que no voy a verte, perdóname si puedes
But you already know me and remembering you hurtsPero tu ya me conoces y recordarte me duele

I always wanted to talk to you, help you on your pathSiempre quise hablarte, ayudarte en tu camino
Enjoy the few moments I spent with youDisfrutar de los pocos momentos que pase contigo
But you wouldn't listen, you looked into nothingPero no me escuchabas, mirabas a la nada
And I would leave in silence, seeing your face from afarY yo me marchaba en silencio viendo de lejos tu cara

I don't know how many sleepless nights in the early morningNo se cuantas noches sin dormir de madrugada
I was filled with helplessness not knowing what you were thinkingMe llenaba de impotencia al no saber en que pensabas
I've always loved you despite your doubtsSiempre te he querido a pesar de que dudaras
In the depths of my eyes, your gaze is always thereEn el fondo de mis ojos esta siempre tu mirada

I try to be strong but I've cried for you aloneTrato de ser fuerte pero te he llorado a solas
When no one can see me and I don't want to cry nowCuando nadie puede verme y no quiero llorar ahora
And I've learned to be brave, I'm not afraid of deathY he aprendido a ser valiente, no temo a la muerte
But it's hard to catch my breath when life suffocates mePero cuesta coger aire cuando la vida me ahoga

I wish I had arrived in timeOjalá hubiese llegado a tiempo
But I saw you fade away alone in that last breathPero te vi apagarte solo en ese último aliento
I know you saw me, we looked at each other, I could understandSe que me viste, nos miramos, pude comprenderlo
You wanted to fly to the end, vanish and get lost in timeQuerias volar hasta el final, desvanecer y perderte en el tiempo

I have a stain on my soul that will never be erasedTengo una mancha en el alma que no se borrara nunca
I have immense helplessness, I have thousands of questionsTengo una impotencia enorme, tengo miles de preguntas
I have anger when I remember and a sadness that overwhelms meTengo rabia al recordar y una tristeza que me inunda
I have your blood and your hands and a deep depressionTengo tu sangre y tus manos y una depresión profunda

Tell me why you left us and didn't fight, dadDime por que nos dejaste y no luchaste papá
You left a huge void for my brother, me, and momNos dejaste un gran vacío a mi hermano, a mi y a mamá
You faded away in my arms, I'll never forgetTe apagaste entre mis brazos no lo olvidaré jamás
Today I want to talk to you, for you to listen even though I know you're no longer hereHoy quiero hablarte, que me escuches aunque se que ya no estás

Worker like no other, 14 hours on your backTrabajador como ninguno, 14 horas a la espalda
Always looking out for everyone, with you nothing was missingSiempre pendiente de todos, contigo nada faltaba
You took us to the swamp to sing togetherNos llevabas al pantano a cantar juntos
In nights of anxiety to calm me downEn las noches de ansiedad para que me tranquilizara

You were always there, you were one who never failedSiempre estabas, tú eras de los que nunca fallaban
And you said even if the truths hurt to the faceY decía aunque dolieran las verdades a la cara
A glance was enough to know what was happeningUna mirada bastaba para saber que pasaba
Man of few words, you spoke with silenceHombre de pocas palabras, tu con el silencio hablabas

Today I sing to you, content, without more remorseHoy te canto, contento, sin más remordimiento
Just to remind you and not forget that I think of youSolo para recordarte y que no olvides que te pienso
With care, so that this song reaches you in heavenCon esmero, para que esta canción te llegue al cielo
And in case I never told you, that I love youY por si nunca te lo dije que te quiero

That your soul is not alone, it's with me all the timeQue tu alma no esta sola esta conmigo a todas horas
Come down for a while with me with the Spanish guitarBájate un rato conmigo con la guitarra española
Let's sing like before without the hours passingVamos a cantar como antes sin que nos pasen las horas
Mom loves you, I know because she still cries for youLa mamá te ama lo sé por que aun te llora

The silence in the living room has your name engravedEl silencio en el salón tiene tu nombre grabado
I can see you in the smoke of that extinguished cigaretteTe puedo ver entre el humo de ese cigarro apagado
In the scent of that last hug we gave each other one dayEn el olor de aquel último abrazo que un día nos dimos
In our talks about the world and destinyEn nuestras charlas sobre el mundo y el destino

I can see you in the laughter of that joke you toldTe puedo ver en las risas de aquel chiste que contabas
In the red sofa at home where you always wereEn el sofá rojo de casa donde tu siempre estabas
In the bottom of the sink in every drop of wineEn el fondo del fregadero en cada gota de vino
I can see you everywhere because you haven't left meTe puedo ver en todas partes por que de mi no te has ido

Your last breath was with me and I don't forget thatTu último suspiro fue conmigo y de eso no me olvido
Your black eyes looking into mineTus ojos negros mirando a los míos
Today I want to bury all this guiltHoy quiero enterrar toda esta culpa
That insults me every night and reminds me of your endQue cada noche me insulta y me recuerda tu final

I want the questions to endQuiero que se acaben las preguntas
My hand on your graveMi mano sobre tu tumba
I forgive you and forgive myselfTe perdono y me perdono
Now we are at peaceAhora ya estamos en paz