Subtle Akward Positions

I was hoping i would go blind
So i would never see again
That we are all so wrong
About the reason we give for why we live

I was hoping i would go deaf
So i would never hear again
The reasons i heard my mother say
For why she knew i should never kill

I was hoping i would go dumb
So i would never speak again
And i could never put myself
In these subtle awkward positions again

Ive never been more embarrassed
Ever in my life
Than when i put myself in here
In this subtle awkward position