Maybe I should drink some cyanide
Anything to make me disappear
Call a man to make feel alive
'Cause I don't really care bout nothing at all

Just wanna be thin
So I can take it all off
Wanna make some new friends

If you wanna see my blueprint
It's not under my blue jeans
But we could sit all night to some Jay-Z

We could of been amazing
California daydream
Surely we ain't in love at 18
You were mine for the summer
You're mine till it rained
Listening to Jay
Tryna feel something

Maybe I should switch to cherry wine
Might make me act less like a bitch
I know I said that I would never lie
But I don't really care bout you anymore

Just wanna be thin
I know that won't be enough
I just wanna to make you understand

If you wanna see my blueprint
It's not under my blue jeans
But we could sit all night to some Jay-Z

We could of been amazing
California daydream
Surely we ain't in love at 18
You were mine for the summer
You're mine till it rained
Listening to Jay
Just tryna feel
Tryna feel something

And that's all I'll ever do
Listening to Jay
Tryna feel something