She Wasn't Home

I didn't ask for what I got, these circumstances
My mom believed that all men deserve second chances
She wasn't home, she wasn't home

Said she was broken, she needed someone to be there
Somehow some stranger could fix her, he said he need her
She wasn't home, she wasn't home
'Cause I would walk down that hallway, that slight discomfort
And she would blame me if I wasn't always covered
So put on clothes, don't wear makeup, don't let them see you
Let them ignore you, don't take on too much face, it's evil
'Cause good girls don't make grown men look twice
But it's for your own good, be polite
Smile, wave, hide, behave
I used to know what home felt like, now I'm uneasy
So I just hide in the bathroom, so no one sees me
I tried to tell her one day, but she didn't believe me
So now there's glass on the floor, and I'm fucking bleeding

I didn't ask for what I got, these circumstances
My mom believed that all men deserve second chances
She wasn't home, she wasn't home
I didn't ask for what I got, these circumstances
My mom believed that all men deserve second chances
She wasn't home, she wasn't home

I didn't ask for these scars, but it fucking happened
I didn't choose this, but it's what I'm fucking trapped in
It's all a cycle, I'm back where I always have been
Look for an exit, I'm not sure I ever had it
I didn't ask for this love, but it's what I've grown on
Because the highs feel so good, it's what people show off
Because the highs feel like I'm loved, just like my mama
So what if lows feel like nails on my throat in drama?

I didn't ask for what happened, these circumstances
And now I cry because I give those second chances
She wasn't home

I didn't ask for what I got, these circumstances
My mom believed that all men deserve second chances
She wasn't home, she wasn't home
I didn't ask for what I got, these circumstances
My mom believed that all men deserve second chances
She wasn't home, she wasn't home