Confusion

We traveled all the roads we never meant to go
I don't know how to get back
When all I have is an old, dirty map
It's beat to hell just like my heart
But it tells a tale beneath the stars
And if I don't make it back to where you are
I'll find myself along the way and that's an honest start

I'm stuck in this body that doesn't know
What it wants or what it needs or who it loves or anything
I'm stuck in this body that doesn't know
What it wants or what it needs or who it loves or anything

I've cried in airport terminals, I've wept in the car
It's always the places you hate that make us who we are
If you could see from where you stand
I'd still be the monster you think that I am
If I don't make it back to where we were
I'll pack my bags and just go - one day I'll learn

I'm stuck in this body that doesn't know
What it wants or what it needs or who it loves or anything
I'm stuck in this body that doesn't know
What it wants or what it needs or who it loves or anything

I've broken hearts, I've had mine shattered
I've come this far just to move backward
And all these scars are just memories
Although I don't know what they mean to me