It's Been Awhile

It's been awhile
Since I could
Hold my head up high
It's been awhile
Since I first saw you
It's been awhile
Since I could stand
On my own two feet again
And it's been awhile
Since I could call you

But everything I can remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
The consequences that are rendered
I stretched myself beyond my means

It's been awhile
Since I could say
That I wasn't addicted
It's been awhile
Since I could say
I loved myself as well and
It's been awhile
Since I've gone and fucked things up
Just like I always do
It's been awhile
But all that shit seems to disappear when I'm with you

And everything I can remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
Consequences that I've rendered
Gone and fucked things up again... Again

Why must I feel this way?
Just make this go away
Just one more peaceful day

It's been awhile
Since I could
Look at myself straight
It's been awhile
Since I said I'm sorry
It's been awhile
Since I've seen the way
The candles light your face
It's been awhile
But I can still remember
Just the way you taste

Everything I can remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
To be, I know it's me
I cannot blame this on my father
He did the best he could for me

It's been awhile
Since I could
Hold my head up high
It's been awhile
Since I said I'm sorry