The Irony In Self Protection

I wanted to be loved
For how great I am
I am still fighting for my pride
For what I have done
Why would you clear my tracks?
When you're the basis for action

I am afraid it will crash and burn
I know I am in deep
I know I'm slowly failing
But still I'll climb up myself

I refuse to fullfill your desires
Because my plans will take you higher

I have always tried to live life by myself
I don't want you to solve
I don't want you to fix this shit
Let my troubles be mine
My depths are my challenges

I am afraid it will crash and burn
I know I am in deep
I know I'm slowly failing
But still I'll climb up myself

Are you falling or is it flying?
Are you burning or igniting?
What is the meaning of your trust
When you ignore my biggest promise