Leak

I always thought I was strong enough on my own
Rely on no one but myself
I know I seem okay
But it's all an act
You'll never ask, I'll never tell
It was my secret

This isn't easy for me to say
I've never been one to talk
I keep it hidden away
Until it leaks from my eyes
When I'm all alone
I was so alone
It would get worse each and every day
I couldn't move
I couldn't eat
I was withering away
I didn't tell anyone
I felt so alone
I was so alone

It was never my intention
To push you all away
I thought I needed space
I just needed help
But I was too afraid to ask
Too afraid to let you in

I broke down
I was weak
I never felt like I was good enough
For people to care
For anyone to help me

I was so scared
You'd all think less of me

This isn't easy for me to say
I've never been one to talk
I keep it hidden away
Until it leaks from my eyes
When I'm all alone
I was so alone

It got worse each and every day
I couldn't move
I couldn't eat
I was withering away
I didn't tell anyone
I felt so alone
I was so alone

I was trying to blame anyone but myself
But the fault lies with me
It was me
It was always me
Why do I hate myself?