From The Outside I Seem Just Fine

Drenched in years and years of pain
I know things will never change
And I know I can't stop the rain
From falling down
I guess it'll never be the same
Time will only make it worse
But was it all well deserved
So small in a massive universe
I'll find my place
When I stop living with this curse

I've tried
So hard
But I can't seem to get it off my mind
I'm so tired
So scarred
But from the outside I seem just fine
How can I go on
When everything I love is now gone
The story is over for me

It fucks me up to think back at the days
When I used to think there was no other way
I've never seen it coming, how could I
I'd lock myself for days inside my room
My friends and family would be worried, they would assume
There was something wrong with me
But I was putting in the time and work so that one day
I'd look back at my life and maybe I could say
I've made it thought it all
But then my body started giving up on me
I thought I'd get it back but now I see
I won't, I never will

I've tried
So hard
But I can't seem to get it off my mind
I'm so tired
So scarred
But from the outside I seem just fine
How can I go on
When everything I love is now gone

I've tried
So hard
But I can't seem to get it off my mind
I'm so tired
So scarred
But from the outside I seem just fine
How can I go on
When everything I love is now gone
The story is over for me
Over for me, for me
How can I go on
When everything I love is now gone
The story is over for me