To Be Godlike

Is there anyway that I can recant my doubts?
It seems as if I always have my hands out
A social pariah is not your messiah
What is there to venerate? Nothing on the outside to captivate
Tear myself at the seams cause I feel dirty & unclean
You can save all your approbations
There's more to me then your single-minded manipulation
Accept me as I am or don't accept me at all
No longer is there an occupancy for me
Within myself I retreat from all discrepancy
Please accept me
This cannot be simplified,feelings buried deep inside
Don't you canonize me / Don't you patronize me
I have nothing that you need, tell me why you cannot see
You see right through me / I'm not what you believe
Can you hear me cry out? Do you feel the pain I feel now?
Can I be redeemed and not lose my self-esteem?
Don't canonize me / Don't patronize me
I have nothing that you need, tell me why you cannot see
Accept me as I am