Deperception

I tried to fill my inner emptiness
With drugs and high percent
My live negating view
Corrodes me from within
Common pleasures are strange for me
I extend my perception
Wanna see things below and beyond
Only to come down again
And see the world through a grey curtain
There's a never ending midnight in myself
And only a chemical shine can light it up
But how long till all is burnt out
Till the decay of my inner self
I don't know I feel so weak
I see the knife is cutting deep
There's a never ending midnight in myself
And only a chemical shine can light it up
There's a never ending midnight in myself
Am I still alive or am I dead?