Forever Winter

He says he doesn’t believe
Anything much he hears these days
He says: Why fall in love
Just so you can watch it go away?

He spends most of his nights
Wishing it was how it used to be
He spends most of his flights
Getting pulled down by gravity

I call just checking up on him
He’s up, 3am pacing
He says: It’s not just a phase I'm in
My voice comes out begging

All this time I didn’t know
You were breaking down
I’d fall to pieces on the floor
If you weren’t around

Too young to know it gets better
I’ll be summer Sun for you forever
Forever winter if you go

He seems fine most of the time
Forcing smiles and never minds
His laugh is a symphony
When the lights go out
It’s hard to breathe

I pull at every thread
Trying to solve the puzzles in his head
Live my life scared to death
He’ll decide to leave instead

I call just checking up on him
He’s up, 5am wasted
Long gone, not even listening
My voice comes out screaming

All this time I didn’t know
You were breaking down
I’d fall to pieces on the floor
If you weren’t around

Too young to know it gets better
I’ll be summer Sun for you forever
Forever winter if you go

If I was standing there
In your apartment
I’d take that bomb
In your head and disarm it
I’d say I love you
Even at your darkest
And, please, don’t go

I didn’t know
You were breaking down
I’d fall to pieces on the floor
If you weren’t around

Too young to know it gets better
I’ll be summer Sun for you forever
Forever winter if you go

I’ll be your summer Sun forever
At 3am, pacing
All this time I didn’t know
At 5am, wasted
I’d be in pieces on the floor
Forever winter if you go

He says he doesn’t believe
Anything much he hears these days
I say: Believe in one thing
I won’t go away