Self Improvement

Tried to sleep, let my brain shut off
Leave me be, really all I want
Is some time to be alone
I do better on my own
The constant ringing in my ears
Echoes through my telephone
Are you there, God
Do you see me trying

To feel better about the days
The things I do and say
The way I treat my friends
Tying up my loose ends

Brush my teeth twice a day
Fold and put my laundry away
I count to ten when I'm upset
Try to not be such a wreck

God I swear, man
It’s all I do
Self improvement has proved
Itself hard to do

Will it feel better the harder I try
Or will I still be stuck on the outside
The pictures clear of who I want to be
But I just don't see it in me
Is this really even worth
A try