Hugging My Grudge

I have weapons and battle plans,
But in my heart I know
I can't ever protect you from
Things I don't understand.

And when I hold you in my arms
It scares me just to
Think that something so beautiful
Could just come apart in my hands.

I've always been chasing rainbows
Staring out of classroom windows.
I don't think I'll ever be happy,
Unless I'm unhappy and hugging my grudge.

I was too dumb to settle down,
So I packed up and I left town
On a sunshine bus
Wondering where it all went wrong.

On a flimsy wing and a prayer,
I followed my heart everywhere
'Til I ended up
Right back where I started from.

I've always been quietly dreaming.
I don't know when I've been beaten.
I don't think I'll ever be happy,
Unless I'm unhappy and hugging my grudge.

I've always been chasing rainbows
Staring out of classroom windows.
I don't think I'll ever be happy,
Unless I'm unhappy and hugging my grudge.

I've always been quietly dreaming.
I don't know when I've been beaten.
I don't think I'll ever be happy,
Unless I'm unhappy and hugging my grudge.