Saviorself

I wish I had more time to sort out all of this inside my mind
I only have one day
It's given at dawn and at dusk it gets taken away
I can't control what I think
So how can I control what I say
I don't know who I am at the moment and I can't pray
I can't pray for the answers anymore
I only have myself to blame for losing control
I've always needed something maybe I needed to be alone
And I don't need to be saved
I'm not saying that it's too late
But way too much has changed
You call it savior
And I call it a learned behavior
You call it the light I refuse to see
And I call it the mask I've seen underneath
Just do and say the same thing
No opinion preserved in stained glass holds more moral truth to me
I only have myself to blame for losing control
I still need to be saved just not by you
I just need to be safe
But not by you