I Hated

This rooms become my prison
Of dark days and darker nights
A hate growing like a life
I'd never wish an existence for
Am I the reason you're not alive?
And I'm falling to my knees
Have you gone? Have you gone?
I still want to be with you
And if you go, I would go too
I'll find you in a place I never thought true
And see your face as I slipped away
Back to my darkest day
I once had nothing
I once had nothing to lose

The thought that I've torn the smile
From your pale skinned face
I've took your love and I've turned it into hate
And I hate myself for the love I can't show
And I convinced myself
That I will never deserve