Hostage

This hostage that I used to keep
Still loiters by the side of me
She's looking up into my eyes

Forgive what I'm about to do
It's the only way to get me through
I only want to sleep at night

How long do I
Have to hold you
Under water
Before you breathe in?

Call me all names under the sun
Wind blows away your every verb
Please don't make this harder for me
Your struggling only makes it worse

This can't be good for me
It's a sign to let her leave
This doesn't feel right at all

Too long have I realised
How far I've taken my disguise
I only want to know the truth

How long do I
Have to hold you
Under water
Before you breathe in?

Call me all names under the sun
Wind blows away your every verb
Please don't make this harder for me
Your struggling only makes it worse

Goodness
It flows through my veins
I'm pushing down on your face

Fingertips
They feel the rain again
And wash away the cherry stains

When it's on you walk away (Face down)
Until your body leaves me (Go now)
So hard to say goodbye (Leave)
This is goodnight

Call me all names under the sun
Wind blows away your every verb
Please don't make this harder for me
Your struggling only makes it worse

Goodness
It flows through my veins
I'm pushing down on your face

Fingertips
They feel the rain again
And wash away the cherry stains