Debts

I lost my job today at the rail yard
Hours were cut, so I was cut, too
First in, last out, last call, and self-doubt
If only there were more that I could do

See, I’ve flipped through the newspaper classifieds
But every listing says “diploma required”
See, I failed, I tried, I got drunk to pass time
Perhaps a sober state of mind would follow through

And so what if I'm scared of dying alone?

I always thought I’d grow up to get my daddy’s job
But they cut him loose when a machine took it on
As I say, as I do, one drink, then a few
I watched him slip away back then
And that’s just what I lived up to
These debts grow taller than me

And so what if I'm scared of dying alone
In an unmarked grave?
And honestly, I swear that I’ll never know
If I can pay back the debts I owe

First in, last out
It’s what this life’s all about
Who you are, who you know
What you’ve done, how you grow

And so what if I'm scared of dying alone
In an unmarked grave?
And honestly, I swear that I’ll never know
At least I tried to pay back the debts I owe