Oblivious To The Obvious: Part 2 - Realization

The news dropped like a bomb
And I felt numb inside
How could I get cancer?
I pleaded for God to give me an answer

The diagnosis compelled me
To look back at my life
What I saw brought sorrow
A troubled past and a bleak tomorrow

My life is such a tragedy
The common theme is misery
Now my end is drawing near
They say I'll die within the year

I look inside and see my parents' ghosts
I've become the thing I hated most
The pain is tearing me in two
The guilt is burning me right through

Why did it take something like this
To make me realize I'm just like them?
I treat my kids unfairly, I know them just barely
I've never shown caring, I'm sure that they hate me

I look inside and see my parents' ghosts
I've become the thing I hated most
The pain is tearing me in two
The guilt is burning me right through

Is it too late to make amends?
Is it too late to forgive my sins?
Will my kids even care when I'm dead?
Am I ever a thought in their heads?