Broke and Crossed

It's too late to call,
Said the blue knight who keeps watch beside my wall
You said the sadness became small
You've grown immune and told yourself you wouldn't fall

Convincing me seems to me
So important when it shouldn't be
When you deceive you only free
The part that keeps you as a part of me

But now I'm shocked and my pride's been mocked, and
You're pushing needles through my skin
In dreams I've walked in where the gun is cocked, and
I see the chamber takes a spin

Cause the pain is sinking in

And I'm rarely lost

But rather broke and crossed

Let me out, pull me in

Before my head caves in

My heart's been tossed

And now my pain's embossed

Pick me up, pull me down

Until I reach the ground

It's too hot inside

As I reach out to my left, turn on my fan and sigh

I try again to close my eyes

I'll be okay - I simply add to endless lies

Reminding me of what I've wasted

Hurts me more than being hated

Cause now my soul's become shaded

And now my heart is coiled and braided

I hope to heal in time

I hope to clear my mind

I'll wash you down with time

Till I heal and feel fine