I Could Be Better

Tell me how many times I swore I'd change
Reach out my hands and try to hold onto fate
I aimed for heaven, but I hit the ground
And all my choices keep circling around
I'm just a body carried by a breath
A heart that's beating for something left
I wish I knew what I'm supposed to be
Instead of drowning in the parts I hate in me
I tried to outrun all the years I've wasted
But time holds tighter than the dreams I've chased

I could be better
But I'm still learning how to fight my own reflection
I could be stronger
But some days I break beneath the weight of my intentions
I don't know the answers
I don't know the road ahead
But I know I've been here before
And I won't let it end like this

How many times did I walk away
Pretend the fear was just another phase?
How many nights did I blame the world
For the things I lost and the things that hurt?
Truth is, I built too many roads
Just to turn around before I'd grown
I watched the sunrise through broken glass
Thinking someday this moment would last

And every chance I never took still haunts me
Echoes of the days I swore I'd change
I could be better
But I'm still learning how to fight my own reflection
I could be stronger
But some days I break beneath the weight of my intentions
I don't know the answers
I don't know the road ahead
But I know I've been here before
And I won't let it end like this

This life is fragile, this soul is frayed
But I'm still breathing through my mistakes
And maybe hope is just another scar
But even scars can guide you in the dark

I could be better
I'm not afraid to face the truth I keep avoiding
I could be stronger
I'm done pretending that the past is still controlling
I don't have the answers
But I'm done being less than this
And I know I've fallen before
But this time, I'll rise again

I could be better
I'm trying
I'm trying