it will never happen

Leaving aside that this is impossible
I can continue adoring you
I wish I had grown up next to you
And not after a while

We are so similar but so far
I hate myself for loving you like this
I think you already know how I name you

It's not right, I know and I know
If I know they find out I have to hide

I don't wanna be that girl who locks in
Who locks in
I would like to be for you, and show it
And show it

I self-sabotage
Pretending not to follow you
You had to realize

I hate that I'm not
The only one who wants you
I wanted to be the only one

You're not even pretty
I am least of all
This is impossible
Maybe I'll let it go
If I know they find out I have to fight

I don't wanna be that girl who locks in
Who locks in
I would like to be for you, and show it
And show it

This already went too far
I curse the dream you were in

My eyes see you without clothes
As if we had stayed one night
But it will never happen

I'm that girl without a chance