My Mind is Heavy I Can't Even Think (Prelude)

My mind is heavy, I can't even think
Lack of feeling peace, I want to find it
The body walks slowly, as if weights were attached to my feet
It's like walking backwards carrying a tree trunk
I aim for the finish, but it feels like I just left the start
I'm going backwards every moment, there's no way around it

I want to get up
I want to rise
I want to go back
I will get up
I will walk this path
I'll go, I'll go
I will scream