Forty Six & 2

Join in my, join in my child
And listen, digging through my old numb shadow

My shadow's shedding skin, I've been picking scabs again
I'm down, digging through my old muscles looking for a clue
I've been crawling on my belly, clearing out what could've been
I've been wallowing in my own confused insecure delusions
For a piece to cross me over or a word to guide me in
I wanna feel the changes coming down
I wanna know what I've been hiding

In my shadow, my shadow
Change is coming through my shadow
My shadow, shedding skin
I've been picking my scabs again

Join in my, join in my child
My shadow moves closer to me

I've been crawling on my belly, clearing out what could've been
I've been wallowing in my own chaotic insecure delusions
I wanna feel the changes consume me, feel the outside turning in
I wanna feel the metamorphosis and cleansing I've enduring

My shadow, my shadow
Change is coming, now is my time

Listen to my muscle memory
Contemplate what I've been clinging to
Forty six and two ahead of me

I choose to live and to grow
Take and give and to move
Learn and love and to cry
Kill and die and to be
Paranoid and to lie
Hate and fear and to do
What it takes to move through

I choose to live and to lie
Kill and give and to die
Learn and love and to do
What it takes to step through

See my shadow changing, stretching up and over me
Soften this old armor, hoping I can clear the way by
Stepping through my shadow or coming out the other side
Step into the shadow
Forty six and two are just ahead of me