Not Only

Every summer we spent spreading different waves
Are you listening to me, this can't be okay

Not only am i trying hard for you
I'm trying to make this work for me

You know i can't sleep at night when i have you within reach
You make me worry at night when i don't see you in my dreams
But only at those times i feel like i'm not what you need
You needed someone to be right there with you all the time

Watch me break my back in two
Take this sensor, we can cross it off real soon
Some things just seem better once they end up wrong
Not only am i upset at myself
I'm afraid of how you might take this