Deserve

Today made her real again:
I've been so dumb, I have been so dumb.
How I must have hurt you,
How you must have felt so alone.
Everything's clear again:
I'm not in love, I am not in love.
I only want to be held by one pair of arms.
What I make her into, it has so little to do with her.
But as for you, as for you -
You're everything I've ever thought you were.
And I don't deserve you.

Today made her real again.
And I'm not proud, I am not proud,
Proud of what's now ended,
The feelings I have messed with.
Everything's clear again:
I got so lost, this time I really lost my way.
I'd think of you today
And feel my heart slowly break.