If I'm Honest

If I'm honest, I saved his picture on my phone
I pull it up when I'm alone, fantasizin'
And if I'm honest, I know where he'll be tonight
I'll show up and act surprised, but I'm lyin'

Is that too honest? I do it every time
I say too much, then I cross the line
I trip on my words again
I wonder if I tell the truth

Would he go? Would he stay? Would he want me?
Would I laugh? Would I cry? Would it haunt me?
Oh, I don't know what to do
I'm in love with the feeling of fallin'
I get drunk on the thought that he wants it
If I'm honest

Yeah, I get nauseous thinkin' about what he might say
If I told him I would wait for him forever

Is that too honest? I do it every time
I say too much, then I cross the line
I trip on my words again
I wonder if I tell the truth

Would he go? Would he stay? Would he want me?
Would I laugh? Would I cry? Would it haunt me?
Oh, I don't know what to do
I'm in love with the feeling of fallin'
I get drunk on the thought that he wants it
If I'm honest

And I, I'm so terrified
Just wanna get it right this time

If I'm honest
I've been thinkin' about you, thinkin' about you
If I'm honest
I've been thinkin' about you, thinkin' about you
If I'm honest
I've been thinkin' about you, thinkin' about you
If I'm honest
I've been thinkin' about you, thinkin' about you
If I'm honest
I've been thinkin' about you, thinkin' about you
If I'm honest
I've been thinkin' about you, thinkin' about you
If I'm honest
I've been thinkin' about you, thinkin' about you
If I'm honest
I've been thinkin' about you, thinkin' about you
If I'm honest
I've been thinkin' about you, thinkin' about you
If I'm honest
I've been thinkin' about you, thinkin' about you
If I'm honest