I Am Self Loathing

I don't know why, I feel this way
It's like I can't control myself
ANYMORE
I fear for my life, I'm tired of fighting off these feelings
I have, I feel like shit
Have I ever told you, I fucking hate myself?
And have I ever told you, I don't give a fuck
About myself
I am a curse, I am a curse

I've lived and made mistakes, I've died and had regrets
So is there only one way out?
I've lived and made mistakes, I've died and had regrets
So is there only one way out?

I'll put myself to sleep
When I sleep, I dream of what I can't have
And when I wake up, I am torn
And when I wake up, I am nothing
I am self loathing