Exorcism

I hate what I crave when I want to be dominated
And yes it still gets me
No pleasure without selling myself out
I am that stupid myth
A constant betrayal and I am complicit
I have no memory and I am so full of shit
And fresh blood and milk for you to suck
I will be your pretty pawn on a pedestal
In that gilded cage
I will deny my past and my people and my own self
I am that ugly truth
Complicit in the constant betrayal
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I promise now and here to myself and to you
Who have bled and torn so much to be true
One day I will not get off on being held down
I will be nobody's pretty pawn
I will not fuck myself dead with a system that fucks you
I won't casually trample you for scraps from fascists
I promise
This is just my stupid story
But I can swear to you
That there will be no defeat
No compromise
No defeat