Pride Vs Intellect

I want to push my life so strong
But now i am so tired
I wanna cry and fight at the same time
I wanna win and loosen my grip
But what do i really want?
I would like to do the whole
I decide to do.

I live between deceits and echoes of my faith
I want to disappoint no one with my escape

You have always to be in strain with all
To never crumble down in my pain
Without ever saying "i can't"
I wanna cry and fight at the same time

I am only a child that poses as a warrior
And the armour again has overwhelmed me

I have always to be in strain
With all and everyone without
Give me a rest or respite
To never crumble down

I can't see my way in
This labyrinthic game of
Opposite forces but i
Have always to be in strain with
Myself, my friends, the ones who trust in me but
All i can now is wriggle
And i live between deceits now

I can't breath, i can't stand up, no one will pick up me
'cause they know i'm too proud and i want to scrape through by
Myself now
I can't breath, i can't stand up, no one will pick up me
'cause they know i'm too proud and i want to scrape through by
Myself now

I am only a child that poses as a warrior
And the armour again has overwhelmed me

I live between deceits and echoes of my faith
I want to disappoint no one with my escape

You have always to be in strain with all
To never crumble down in my pain
Without ever saying "i can't"
Without the bitter words "i cannot".