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I can’t sleep until I erase all the memories up to today
今日までの記憶の全部を消してしまう時まで眠れない
kyou made no kioku no zenbu o keshite shimau toki made nemurenai
I’m dying for a stand-in for the life I’ll live starting tomorrow
明日から生きていく自分の身代わりが欲しくてたまらない
ashita kara ikite iku jibun no migawari ga hoshikute tamaranai
Can you let me say it’s okay, then blame you later?
大丈夫と言わせて後から君のせいにさせてはくれないか
daijoubu to iwasete ato kara kimi no sei ni sasete wa kurenai ka
It’s pointless now, so can you let me blame you later?
今さら意味ないから後から君のせいにさせてはくれないか
imasara imi nai kara ato kara kimi no sei ni sasete wa kurenai ka

Promises I can’t keep
できない約束を
dekinai yakusoku o
My mind gets consumed by every little word that spills out
透透と溢れるひとことひとことばかりに脳を奪われるくらい
toutou to afureru hitokoto hitokoto bakari ni nou o ubawareru kurai
Nothing makes sense, I can’t do anything
意味を成せない何もできない
imi o nasenai nani mo dekinai
I want to escape, I want to jump, I can’t look away
見えない逃げたい飛びたいやめたい逸らせない
mienai nigetai tobitai yametai sorasenai

So
だから
dakara
Sink down
沈め
shizume
Sink down
沈め
shizume
Until I can’t rise from the ashes
灰上がれないほどまで
hai agarenai hodo made
Until I’m bored
飽きるまで
akiru made
Drop it
落とせ
otose
Drop it
落とせ
otose
Until it’s time to save me
救いたらす時まで
sukui tarasu toki made

I chew up the screams that push out the bitter taste of lies
嘘味の粒々を喉からしめ出した悲鳴ごと噛み砕く
uso aji no tsubutsubu o nodo kara shimedashita himei goto kamikudaku
I get through it all with a forced smile and a know-it-all tone
笑顔がへたなばっかで知ったような口振りにそってやり過ごす
egao ga hetana bakka de shitta you na kuchiburi ni sotte yarisugosu
I never wanted to be this way
なりたくなかった
naritaku nakatta

Today, I wait to be saved by a sleepy, dreamy ideal
今日役立つ眠たい眠たい理想で救われることを待つ
kyou yakudatsu nemutai nemutai risou de sukuwareru koto o matsu
The first thing is to speak it out loud
一番目は言の口で言う
ichibanme wa i no kuchi de iu
Bite down hard, strong, and painful
力強く堅く痛く噛み締めて
chikara tsuyoku kataku itaku kamishimete

Just die, die
死んでしまえしまえ
shinde shimae shimae
If you hate it and don’t know the future or the past
この先も過去も知らず嫌いなら
kono saki mo kako mo shirazu kirai nara
Break it
壊せ
kowase
Break it
壊せ
kowase
If it’s gonna happen, it might as well be a company
どうせなら会社になればいい
douse nara kagaisha ni nareba ii

The frustration I can’t swallow, the sadness that gives birth to nothing
食べきれない苛立ちも何も生まない悲しみも
tabekirenai iradachi mo nani mo umanai kanashimi mo
It’s tasteless, and before I spit it out
味気なくて吐き出す前に
ajikenakute hakidasu mae ni
Just
もう
mou
Just
もう
mou
Sing the next one
次を歌え
tsugi o utae

If it’s gonna happen
どうせなら
douse nara
Dance, dance
踊り踊れ
odori odore
Strike the beat before you turn gray
灰色になりきる前に打ち鳴らせ
haiiro ni narikiru mae ni uchi narase
Change, change
変われ変われ
kaware kaware
Until you fall asleep
眠り落ちる時まで
nemuri ochiru toki made

If it’s gonna happen
どうせなら
douse nara
Steal, steal
奪え奪え
ubae ubae
Expose the lies you’ve bought
買いならした嘘あばいて
kainarashita uso abaite
I was watching the illusion that clung to my burning head
贄りたぎる頭に寄った虚像を見ていた
nietagiru atama ni yogitta kyozou o mite ita
I was looking at myself.
自分を見ていた
jibun o mite ita