Shame

So when you're looking back on everything
Do you feel ashamed?

Nothing hurts like
The truth in plain sight
But being too young to
Know it's not right that you're
Forgotten every night
Searching for love you shouldn't
Have to find
You caused me to believe
Good things weren't meant for me
Suppressing every feeling
Content with never healing

You put me through hell
So don't

Don't tell me that you meant well
You put fear in a heart that would grow
To feel so alone
A child's mind
You weaponized
And left scars that will never not show
Just thought you should know

I could never seem to get your attention
'Cause your love came with conditions
I was never enough
Never good enough for you
Now you're begging me not to leave
But without you I can breathe
Wipe the tears from your eyes cause
You're not worth mine

Don't tell me that you meant well
You put fear in a heart that would grow
To feel so alone
A child's mind
You weaponized
And left scars that will never not show
Just thought you should know

Looking back on everything you put me through
I thought I was to blame
So when you're looking back on everything
Do you feel ashamed?

No one wants to be alone
But you deserve this empty home
(Deserve this empty home)