A Scream In Pain

I can't no longer resist
Without testing the pleasure,
Pleasures of this mortal world,
But something stops me!
My faith? My religion?
A paind with thorns like steel
Pierces my heart so deep,
I can't no longer resist,
Living by halucinations,
This pain desecrates my body,
I feel to scream.
The torture inside,
Coming from nowhere,
Left alone in this miserable world,
Weak spirit is fading.
And my heart is bleeding,
From the emptiness inside,
I hear them calling - words of temptation.
Inexplicable feelings, within mind,
Awake from dream to reality.
I made the first step,
And enter the temptation,
Inverted to darkness, feeling so good,
Fear of God is gone, all beauty wasted,
No more alone, I won life eternal.