Decay

Lately I've been thinking too much about being alone
Sitting at home and thinking
Why does it have to be this way
Do I have to just sit back and decay
Or can I take my life into my own hands
Is life going to give me a second chance

Sometimes I like to think about if I could change
Isn't it strange
How you can have everything you've ever wanted
But feel so unwanted
Feel so haunted

A knife in my back that I put there myself
Oh why do I make my life a living hell?
People get second chances
Something I don’t deserve
They say I have a voice
But I can’t seem to be heard

Lately I've been thinking too much about being alone
Sitting at home and thinking
Why does it have to be this way
Do I have to just sit back and decay
Or can I take my life into my own hands
Is life going to give me a second chance

I'd give anything to change
But every time it's just the same
I'm a face without a name
Every day I live with such shame
Curse this fragile heart of mine
Because it breaks every time
And I'm tired of living like this
A slave to my vices

A knife in my back that I put there myself
Oh why do I make my life a living hell?
People get second chances
Something I don’t deserve
They say I have a voice
But I can’t seem to be heard