Desembre

December

Desembre

When the anguish burns you insideQuan l'angoixa et cremi per dintre
and life slips through your hands.i la vida et fugi de les mans.
When the melancholy suffocates meQuan m'ofegui la melangia
watching the days go byveient com passen els dies
without leaving any sign.sense deixar cap senyal.

When there's no desire left to laughQuan no quedi esma per riure
and often I find myself distracted.i sovint em trobi dissipat.
When swallowing saliva is hardQuan costi empassar la saliva
as if a tight fistcom si un puny ben apretat
had my heart strangled.tingues el meu cor escanyat.
...I don't want to fall into the hole....No vull caure al forat.

Towards DecemberCap al desembre
glacier in my belly.glaç al meu ventre.
Hidden in the darknessAmagada a la foscor
there's always a crack of light.sempre hi ha una escletxa de claror.

If I wanted to scream and tear my throatSi he volgut cridar i esgolar-me
and trying it made me choke.i en provar-ho m'he ennuegat.
When everything has been frightening for days,Quan fa dies que tot espanta,
and I'm not even halfi no sóc ni la meitat
of who I used to be.d'aquell que un dia havia estat.

I want to look up and not see any skyVull mirar cap amunt i no veure cap cel
full of reasons clouding my mind.de raons que m'entelen el seny.
I just want to see the sun rise in the morningNomés vull veure com surt el sol al matí
and feel the warmth on my skin.i sentir com m'escalfa la pell.
...To fill every moment....Omplir cada moment.

Towards DecemberCap al desembre
glacier in my belly.glaç al meu ventre.
Hidden in the darknessAmagada a la foscor
there's always a crack of light.sempre hi ha una escletxa de claror.