The Bad One

La Mala

So much time fighting with myselfTanto tiempo en guerra conmigo
Wondering why I messed it upPreguntándome porque lo arruine
Making up my own punishmentsInventándome mis propios castigos
Hating myselfOdiándome

You made me believeMe hiciste creer
That I wasn’t okayQue yo no estaba bien
That I was someone specialQue era alguien especial
Hard to loveDifícil de querer
That you’d never love meQue nunca ibas a amar
But now look at mePero ahora mírame
How could I not seeComo no pude ver

That I wasn’t crazyQue yo no estaba loca
That I wasn’t that extremeQue no era tan extrema
That I was never brokenQue nunca estuve rota
And now it finally showsY ahora por fin se nota
That I wasn’t the problemQue yo no era el problema

That it was never my faultQue nunca fue mi culpa
That you didn’t careQue a ti no te importara
And I owe myself an apologyY me debo una disculpa
For being so naivePor haber sido ilusa
And letting you fool meY dejar que me engañaras
I was never the bad oneYo nunca fui la mala
I was never the bad oneYo nunca fui la mala

That it was my faultQue era culpa mía
Or at least that’s what you saidO al menos eso me decías
That I didn’t knowQue yo no sabía
How life workedComo funcionaba la vida
And I who believed youY yo que te creía
Was just a kidSolo era una niña
And that suited you just fineY eso a ti te convenía

I still can’t forgive myselfAún no me perdono
For taking so longHaber tardado tanto
For giving youHaberte entregado
My best yearsMis mejores años
I hope you’re awareOjalá que seas consciente
Of all the damageDe todo el daño
Now don’t askAhora no preguntes
Why I don’t miss youPorque no te extraño

Now I realizeAhora me doy cuenta
That I was always okayQue yo siempre estuve bien
That the problemQue el problema
Isn’t what I asked forNo es lo que pedía
But whoSino a quien
And when I stopped chasing itY cuando dejé de perseguirlo
I found itLo encontré
With him I could understandCon él si pude entender

That I wasn’t crazyQue yo no estaba loca
That I wasn’t that extremeQue no era tan extrema
That I was never brokenQue nunca estuve rota
And now it finally showsY ahora por fin se nota
That I wasn’t the problemQue yo no era el problema

That it was never my faultQue nunca fue mi culpa
That you didn’t careQue a ti no te importara
And I owe myself an apologyY me debo una disculpa
For being so naivePor haber sido ilusa
And letting you fool meY dejar que me engañaras
I was never the bad oneYo nunca fui la mala
I was never the bad oneYo nunca fui la mala