Peace Offering

It's piling up, a constant hunger
I've been yearning for so long
You'd start to think that I'd be used to this
With every problem I dwell on

I'm still suffering, is this what I need?
A new love for a false sense of peace
Justify the sad excuse, of a stranger I call me

And if you pull the heartstrings
While closed in with clipped wings
I couldn't be enough for anyone when I hate myself
The peace offering doesn't mean anything

When all I see are these insecurities
Making me my enemy
I’ll pretend that I'm okay like this
But you can tell by my tone of voice
It’s not up to choice for getting out of this bed I'm in

Staying dormant in dark places I fall right back in
I concealed the guilt, tearing down any love I built
Now I'm wearing thin, I'm letting go
As you’re slipping (feel it all cave in)

Will all this pain be useful someday?
Pessimism finds its way
To keep seeping through my veins
I'm all worn down
I can’t wait this out
My mental health is defeated now

I heard the sound in this broken house
The memory serves me well
Please, could you pick up the phone?
I’d say it all, I’d make it known
That I'm not what I seem
That you’re everything in between someone who’s leaving