Dreamer

I'm sitting empty and shatterd on my bed
a heavy storm rages in my head
I dream a daydream that makes me very sad
and I just don't know if I'm alive or dead

There is only one thing I want to know:
what will happen when I'm gone?
Will I see Jesus and all his saints?
Will I see God? is there a chance?

I don't think that there is a paradise
I don't think that there is a hell
I think that we all are taht we are made to
so noone could be punished for his sins

I think I'm swimming in a lake without a bank
the water is very rank
I'm dreaming of flowers and of land
it's like I'm standing in quick-sand

And if I'd dream in that lake would
would my life be at stake?
I know I'll never be really gone
but how will I live on?