Byoushinwo Kamu

Devouring the Illusion

Byoushinwo Kamu

Life's illusion always passing by
生活の偽像 いつも通り通り過ぎて
Once you've gone, you know you can't go back
一回行った わかった戻らない
You're a repeat offender, right? Crying during the loan
確信犯でしょ？ 融資中に泣いた後
And you were laughing

Saying 'me too,' suppressing fake feelings
私もそうだよって 偽りの気持ちがっさんして
Keeping it all inside, silently accumulating
入って黙ってずっとたまってく
No qualifications to say goodbye face to face
何が何でも面と向かってさよなら
I'm left without them

Diving into the ashes, biting the second hand
灰に潜り秒針を噛み
Shattering in a daydream
白昼夢の中でガンガン砕いた
But it won't break, it won't stop
でも壊れない止まってくれない
Moving forward without knowing the truth

Wanting to steal, hide, and forget like this
このまま奪って隠して忘れたい
Even without understanding each other
分かり合うまる一つもなくても
Don't return 'sorry' to me
あってごめんって返さないでね
I don't need shapeless words

Unhealed mouth wounds, accepting everything
消えない口傷 何でも受け止めると
Said it's over, won't come back
言った切りもう帰ることはない
Even if it's nonsense, not for me
デタラメでも僕のためじゃなくても
But protected by you

Eyes and mouth meaningless
目も口も意味がないほどに
I'm so stuck I can't move
塞ぎ込んで動けない僕を
Don't find me, just leave me alone
見つけないでほっといてくれないか
No matter where I look, there's no escape

Diving into the ashes, biting the second hand
灰に潜り秒針を噛み
Shattering in a daydream
白昼夢の中でガンガン砕いた
But it won't break, it won't stop
でも壊れない止まってくれない
If I continue on this fiery path

Wanting to steal, hide, and forget like this
このまま奪って隠して忘れたい
Even without understanding each other
分かり合うまる一つもなくても
Don't return 'sorry' to me
あってごめんって返さないでね
I don't need shapeless words

Screaming with my appearance, no morning
姿で叫んで朝はない
Laughing, falling, pitiful
笑って転んで情けない
It's not anyone's fault
誰のせいでもないこと
Wanting to blame someone
誰かのせいにしたくて
Am I even here?
僕っているのかな
I actually know
本当はわかってるんだ
Even if abandoned, I still believe

Wanting to steal, hide, and forget like this
このまま奪って隠して忘れたい
Wanting to steal, hide, and forget like this
このまま奪って隠して忘れたい

Wanting to steal, hide, and talk
このまま奪って隠して話したい
Even without understanding each other
分かり合うまる一つもなくても
Don't return 'sorry' to me
あってごめんって返さないでね
Why can't you save
疑うだけの僕をどうして
Me, who can't be saved from doubt
救いきれない嘘はいらないから

Under the clear sky