Beating Pillows

When i think to myself,
And i wonder what ive done
To deserve all the pain,
That i have inside,
Alone in my bed,
I try not to see what i could have been
Your new boyfriend,
Thats just what i want,
For christmas this year,
Ill pray and ill beg
I just need you here
I just need you right here

A small thing,
That im asking
I just need someone to hold me near,
And i need, your arms were holding me tight untill i fall asleep
And i cant think of no one else,
I miss you so much that i hate myself
I think of all the things i should have said
But now youre gone and im in pain