Mommy

She said that we don’t have to hug
She said that I don’t have to love
And when she took my wrist and pushed me 'gainst the wall
The look on her face made me afraid of who she was

And it's all okay 'cause it's all in my head
And it's all my fault that my tears have stained the bed

When I think of my mother
I think of a guard holding me captive but not in her arms
When I think of her voice I think of a siren
Constantly sounding after pulling the alarm
I'm anxious and broken because of her words
I’ll never get back the time I spent putting her first
When I think of my mother I'm often in tears
'Cause she is the reason for all of my fears

Mommy
Why don’t you want me

How does it feel to be alone
To call and to text once every year to ask me home
Do you ever hurt to cry or care I'm not around
Do you not regret the little contact we have now

And it's all okay 'cause it's all in my head
And it's all my fault that my tears have stained the bed

When I think of my mother
I think of a guard holding me captive but not in her arms
When I think of her voice I think of a siren
Constantly sounding after pulling the alarm
I'm anxious and broken because of her words
I’ll never get back the time I spent putting her first
When I think of my mother I'm often in tears
'Cause she is the reason for all of my fears

Mommy
Why don’t you want me
Why don't you want me
Mommy