Close Enough

You're still a perfume on my jacket
Still a ghost inside my mattress
And I hate that you still taste like
Everything I thought I needed

I miss you when I'm close enough to forget
When I feel the warmth of you fading from my skin
Yeah, I loved you, but I lost me in the end
And I'm not going back again
I want you when I'm lonely in my bed
So I'm better when I don't let you in

I still replay the conversations
All the lies wrapped in affection
You were sweet enough to keep me
Cold enough to break me slowly
Now I breathe without the tension
Found myself in the reflection
That you always blurred with every
No one loves you like me
And I don't wanna want you
But some nights I almost call you
Then I hear my sanity say: No
Ooh, guess that means I've grown

I miss you when I'm close enough to forget
When I feel the warmth of you fading from my skin
Yeah, I loved you, but I lost me in the end
And I'm not going back again
I want you when I'm lonely in my bed
So I'm better when I don't let you in