Dead Alive

Hello, how are you?
I've got no vital signs
But I'm still here
Turning feelings into songs
Just to see if I can find myself

Hello, how are you?
It's been so long since I've seen me
I took a breath and faced the fears inside of me
The air that never came made my chest feel tight
But deep inside my wounds, I learned to walk through life

I don't know life's map, but I know the roads I've crossed
I know every scar from every choice that left me lost
Through the flow of this blood, I won't stop the stream
If pain has become fuel, let my heart pump through the beat

Veins and arteries carry what's still left of me
My mind still celebrates what's survived beneath the debris
It's not that I don't feel alive, I just had to change
I died to everything they tried to make me become

I tried so hard to fit
The mold they made for me
But when I lost myself
That's when I finally chose to be

Dead alive, alive dead
Dead to you, alive for me
I don't wanna be the person
You decided I was supposed to be

Dead alive, alive dead
Now I breathe for me alone
My heart is beating stronger
'Cause I chose to see this journey through to the end

Dead alive, alive dead
Dead to you, alive for me
I don't wanna be the person
You decided I was supposed to be

Dead alive, alive dead
Now I breathe for me alone
My heart is beating stronger
'Cause I chose to see this journey through to the end

I killed the life that wanted to control my every move
And started building up a body of my own, my own truth
Like a defense cell, I blocked away
Everything that tried to control my mind and make me obey

My brain was shaped by my own decision
I don't need your approval or permission
I don't need your air, your opinion doesn't matter anymore
I found out freedom starts inside the heart's own core

You don't need to worry
My body's built to last
It's always keeping busy
Living out the dreams I have

I won't keep changing
Who I am to please your eyes
If you can't see who I am
I'm not the one who needs to change

I tried so hard to fit
The mold they made for me
But when I lost myself
That's when I finally chose to be

Dead alive, alive dead
Dead to you, alive for me
I don't wanna be the person
You decided I was supposed to be

Dead alive, alive dead
Now I breathe for me alone
My heart is beating stronger
'Cause I chose to see this journey through to the end

Dead alive, alive dead
Dead to you, alive for me
I don't wanna be the person
You decided I was supposed to be

Dead alive, alive dead
Now I breathe for me alone
My heart is beating stronger
'Cause I chose to see this journey through to the end

I don't need your voice
To discover who I am
I don't need your air
To know that I still breathe

If I've died a thousand times
Trying just to please you
Today I reclaim my life
Without asking you to let me

Dead alive, alive dead
Dead to you, alive for me
Now I'm breathing on my own
And no one gets to decide my destiny

Dead alive, alive dead
I was reborn inside of me
If I used to live for everyone
Today I finally live for me

Dead alive, alive dead
Dead to you, alive for me
Now I'm breathing on my own
And no one gets to decide my destiny

Dead alive, alive dead
I was reborn inside of me
If I used to live for everyone
Today I finally live for me

Dead to you
Alive for me

Now I breathe