I Made You

I made you when I had no one
Painted rage on bloody keys
You were born from isolation
Not the version they now see
They scream your name like you′re some god
But you were just a way to breathe
Now you're louder than my heartbeat
And I can′t fucking sleep

I thought you'd save me from the silence
But you demand more than you give
You're fuel and fire, mask and burden
You made me feel, then made me live
But now the pressure′s in my chest again
And I flinch at every stream
I built you to survive the dark
Now you′re haunting all my dreams

Maybe I need you
But you don't need me
You′re the angel
And I'm just the body
I gave you my pain
You gave me your name
But I don′t know
If I'll ever be the same
Knowing what I could have been

They call me you like I′m a shell
Like I was nothing 'til you rose
But I remember writing lyrics on the floor
With no one close
You were mine, you were my outlet
Not a brand they could adore
Now you sell what I once felt
And I'm not sure anymore

What if I let go?
Would you vanish or survive?
Would the silence come back louder?
If I pushed you to the side?
I wanted art, not war
I wanted breath, not a stage
But you′re my frankenstein creation
And I can′t put you back in the cage

Maybe I need you
But you don't need me
You′re the angel
And I'm just the body
I gave you my pain
You gave me your name
But I don′t know
If I'll ever be the same
Knowing what I could have been
You called it jealousy, but truth be told
I was just scared to let them see my soul