Shelter In A Painful Escapism

To the land of deceptive joy I escape
Chased by the past's haunting shadows
Intentionally I fall into the beauty of a fake world
In a nostalgia-like state, I long for... A torment
That lies beneath a shroud of delusions

My haunting shadows
In you I seek a trace
For Im deluded by my own sanity
Yesterday's realities are the imaginations of tomorrow

In a lies-filled emptiness
Under the dominion of hopelessness
Drifting to the day the light shivered
Living the denial, resisting the acceptance

The land of joyous deception

My haunting shadows
In you I seek a trace
Decept me
Drown me in lies
Take me away.. Where I belong
Away to that land

But, still I wonder, over again

Should I stay there and bear that pain?
Or should I run away from my own escapism?

Have you ever felt you can escape yet still imprisoned??
Have you ever been aware something's poisoned yet still want to taste it??

A life is lost
A future, foretold and dead
The daylight will not return
No.. Will not return
And the kingdom of the past shall reign forever